My Love!

“love makes my life complete”

I don’t know what sort of relationship is it  but it’s all Love,Love and Love!

I don’t have enough words to thank Him!

He was
the one who was always there for me!

Who picked me up when I stumbled,

Who soothed me, when I was hurt!
Who helped me in my decisions, when I was confused!

Who gave me the strength to smile, when I knew no reason to do so!

Who cheered me up, when I was depressed!

there were times when I was occupied by fears …
He  was the one who gave me the courage to overcome them…

When I was down with inferiority complex ,
He was the one who told me how beautiful I am !!

When I felt , I am worthless,

He was the one who showed me my worth !!

I never knew how to express my feelings, thoughts and desires,
He was the one who encouraged me to express them to my parent !!

When I lost my friends and became anhedonic,
He was there for me as a Best friend and showed me how to enjoy my life !!

When I was afraid to share anything because of the fear of being misunderstood
He was there to understand me!

When I was unsure of my success,
He was the one who motivated me, help me through all the struggle and assured me of my success!

When there was no one to wipe away my tears,
He was always there to wipe them away !

When I ran out of all the energy,
He was there to revitalize me!

When I was embarrassed of my tears,
He loved my tears !

When everyone let me down,
He was the one who helped me and gave  me the strength to get up and face life!

When everyone forgot me,
He was the one who remembered me!

When I was too scared to achieve what I believe ,
He was the one whose motivation forced me to move towards my goal!

When everyone pushed me away
He was the one who pulled me towards Himself  !!

When I was left alone to face the hardships of life,
He was there with me, at every step to make everything easy for me !!

When I was confused with major life decisions,
He was the one who helped me decide !!

When at times even I hated myself,
He was the one who loved me !

Whenever I relied on Him,
He never let me down !

Whenever I asked Him for help,
He never refused !

He is none other than my Love,My creator, My lover
who loves me seventy times more than my mother… ALLAH the Almighty!

“Indeed Allah , to the people, is Kind and Merciful. [Al Qur’an 22:65]  “

“Be not sad, surely Allah is with us. [Al Qur’an  9:40] “

mere beykhabar tujhey kia pata…!

Mere Khuwab ‘Meri Kahaniyaan
Mere Bey Khabar Tujhy Kiya Pata

Teri Aarzooun k Dosh Pe
Teri Keafiyaat k Jaam Mein

Tere Naqsh Mein’Tere Naam Mein
Mere Khuwab ‘Meri Kahaniyaan

Mere Zaeichy ‘Mere Rastay
Mere leakh Ki Ye Nishshaniyaan

Teri Chah Mein Hain Ruki Hoi
Kabhi Aansoun Ki Qatar Mein

Kabhi Pattharoon k Hasar Mein
Kabhi Bad-Naseebi Ki Ghat Mein

Kai Rang Dhoop Sey Jal Gaye
Kai Chand Shakh Sey Dhal Gaye

Kai Tan Sulag k Pighal Gaye
Teri ulfatoon k Qayam Mein

Tery Dard k Dar O Bam Mein
Teri Kaeinat Ki Raat Mein

Koi Kab Sey Sabt E Saleib Hai
Tujhy Kiya Khabar ‘Mery Bey Khabar!!

o sang dil tujhey kia malom….

The Silent Sufferer…

I am sitting in the dark corner,on the cold floor,
closely tucked with the head dropped on the knees, arms wrapped around myself…

I can hear them banging on the walls,
they are calling my name, banging the walls even louder,
they are asking me to come out…
they are asking me to destroy these walls I have built around myself…

now they are telling me that i will die alone in these walls,
they are trying to tell me how much they love me!

Silly people!
They don’t know my emotions and feelings are all frozen…
I am numb and in pain as if frostbite has stricken all my body! I can’t feel their love and care now…

They are waiting for me to break the silence and speak… I wonder how can they be so ignorant!
Don’t they know I can’t speak… I can move my lips , try to speak but words don’t come out…

They say they care for me! They say they love me… They idealize me… They say I was the sunlight in their lives…
I can’t tell them I don’t need there love and care, I dont have any more light to lighten up their lives and world…They say I was the beacon of hope for them… I’m hopeless !
I know….Their efforts are useless… They are fake… they are lying….
They want me to come out so that they can hurt me again…
And can leave me whenever they want…
And make me beg for their presence and for forgiveness !

Banging has stopped…

They are shouting now…
I can hear them clearly…

I Know no one care enough to break the walls, break them down and reach me!

So what’s the use of all this ??!

They are banging again but its slowing down gradually now…

I just want them to leave me alone!

I can hear the foot steps…
I think they are going away…
Yes they are leaving…
Foot steps are fading …

Silence!
There’s complete silence now…
No more voices… No more noise!

I lifted up my head…
I’m looking up at the sky now…
Its dark starless night…
I can’t see the moon…
I dropped my head again…

I can feel something inside me melting…
I can feel the tears rolling down my cheeks…
I can hear myself sobbing… !

I can hear the echo of my sobs… returning back from the huge walls to make me feel more miserable….
I can feel the numbness spreading all over me like frostbite…

I think I am going to die…

Is it death I am waiting for? Or for a caring person to break these walls or climb these huge walls to reach me!!

I am closing my eyes….

I don’t want to think…

I want to die peacefully…

I am still breathing….
and
waiting….

hear the silent screams!!

 

Just Move On!!!

It seems that you have come to a point where there is no progression in your life…
everything seems stagnant…

you are tired of waiting…
waiting for something to happen…
waiting for someone to come back and take you along…
waiting for a wish to come true…
waiting for a chance to make your life better…
waiting for someone to appreciate you…
waiting for the light to eradicate all the darkness from your life…
you are just hoping for THE BEST!

you are in a state of stagnancy ,lack of viatality and lifelessness!

well! nothing is going to happen, there’s no use of hoping for THE BEST!
miracles are not going to happen, no one is going to come back….
no one is going to help you to step out of this lifeless state…
believe me! no one will help you!
it’s you and only YOU, who can help yourself…!

to get out of this darkness just start moving…! no more FALSE HOPES! no more WAIT! JUST MOVE ON!

if you have lost, accept the defeat and move on!
someone left you, accept it that he’ll never be there for you, don’t decieve yourself… Move on!

you left someone, don’t miss them now! You left them and they learnt how to live without you… so no use of going back… move on!

you have wounded,bruised,scarred soul and a bleeding heart, can’t move on?
well, Ignore them for a while , don’t wait for them to heal….they’ll heal with time.. just Move on!
if you didn’t get what you love… doesn’t matter, everyone isn’t lucky to get what he loves…. Forget that! Just move on!

you have to embrace IMPERMANENCE!

Nothing in life lasts forever. Every experience and relationship eventually runs its course.

The best way to embrace impermanence is to translate it into action.
Treat each day as a life unto itself. Appreciate the people in front of you as if it were their last day on earth.
Find little things to gain in every moment instead of dwelling on what you lost.

by just moving on you can explore new opportunities, can change the course of your Life, can get the happiness and love in any form, and can simply hush away the darkness from your life!

MOVE ON ! LIFE HOLDS SOMETHING WONDERFUL FOR YOU!

don’t waste you whole life, trying to get back what was taken away!!

Dare to be…

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.

When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.

When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.

When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.

When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.

When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.

When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.

When times are tough, dare to be tougher.

When love hurts you, dare to love again.

When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.

When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.

When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.

When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.

When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.

When the day has ended,dare to feel as you’ve done your best.

 

Dare to be the best you can –

At all times, Dare to be!

dare to be YOU!!

New year 2013!

As the new year has just started,With happiness all around….

We all have
New hopes… 
New aspirations…
New plans…. 
New spirits….
New resolutions….

And some of the sadness ,that’s from the unaccomplished plans, shattered dreams,dashed hopes from 2012!

I think every year is the same… With its depressing as well as elating times…

We have times when we are in a bleak, despairing, desperate, and deadened state.
Times when life is bloodless, pulseless, but enough to allow a suffocating horror and pain, sometimes it seems that all things are dark and drained of feeling.

Sometimes there’s just blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness…

There are also the times when we feel so elated and happy , feel that we are the most happiest people alive…

Times when we feel the positivity at its peak in us…
Times when our energy and enthusiasm are high and outflowing and we feel like we can accomplish everything and can even change the whole world with this much amount of energy…

This year I’m afraid everything will come again…
Nothing is going to be different….
Nothing is going to be changed except the date!

There’s going to be the hard n bad times as well as good n happy times…

Its “YOU” who is going to bring THE CHANGE in this new year…
just a little change in everything can make this year different, beautiful, productive and memorable from the previous one!

smile and the world will smile with you!!

wait December….don’t go….!

abhi lamhay nahin bikhray

abhi mosam nahin bichrey…

 

merey kamray ki thandak mein

abhi kuch dhoop baqi ha…

 

meri diary k kuch safhay 

abhi kuch keh nahin paaye…

 

mere aangan k sab pooday 

abhi bhi gungunatay hain….

 

merey be-jaan hountoun per

abhi muskaan baqi hai….

 

kisi k laout anay ka

abhi imkaan baqi hai….

 

DECEMBER! baat ek sun lo

sunoo tum maan jaao na!

 

k jab tak wo nahin aata

DECEMBER tum na jao naa…!

tum ne kaha tha tum laot aao gay…..

 

Good Bye December!!

aao k December ko rukhsat keryn…

aao k December ko rukhsat keryn,
kuch khushyun ko sambhal ker,
kuch ansu’oun ko taal ker,
jo lamhay guzray chahatoun mein,
jo pal beetay rafaqatoun mein,
kabhi waqt k sath chaltay chaltay,
jo thak k rukay rastoun mein,
kabhi khushyun ki umeed mili,
kabhi bichrey huoun ki deed mili,
kabhi pey panaah muskura  diye,
kabhi hanstay hanstay ro diye,

in sarey lamhoun ko mukhtasir keryn…
aao k December ko rukhsat keryn…

آؤ کہ دسمبر کو رخصت کریں۔۔۔

آؤ کہ دسمبر کو رخصت کریں
کچھ خوشیوں کو سنبھال کر،
کچھ آنسوؤں کو ٹال کر،
جو لمحے گزرے چاہتوں میں
جـو پل بیتے رفاقتـوں میں
کبھی وقت کے ساتھ چلتے چلتے
جو تھک کے رکے رستوں میں
کبھی خوشیوں کی امید مِلی
کبھی بچھڑے ہوؤں کی دید مِلی
کبھی بے پناہ مسکرا دیے
کبھی ہنستے ہنستے رو دیے
ان سارے لمحوں کو مختصر کریں
آؤ کہ دسمبر کو رخصت کریں۔۔

jaa december jaa….

Last day of 2012!!

Saal Ka Aakhri Din Hai
Abhi Kuch Dhoop Hai Lekin
Zara Si Dair Ko Teyh Hai Keh” Akhir Shaam Hona Hai..!

Haqiqat Ya Kahani Jo Bhi Hai Anjam Hona Hai,
Chalo Mil Beth K Apne Khasary Baant Lete Hain !

Sab He Rang ” Jugnu” Aor Sitare Baant Lety Hain,
Zara Si Dair Ko Teyh Hai Keh” Akhir Shaam Hona Hai..
Haqiqat Ya Kahani Jo Bhi Hai Anjam Hona Hai !

To kiun Na Kuch Shaam Se Pehly,
Jo Kuch Ghariyan Muyyasr Hain..
Unhi Mein Zindgi Kar Lain,
Koi Ehsaas Ki Shamma Jala Kar..
Inn Andheron Main,
Koi Daam Roshni Kar Lain !

Chalo Hum Dosti Kar Lain..
Zara Si Dair Ko Teyh Hai Keh” Akhir Shaam Hona Hai,
Haqiqat Ya Kahani Jo Bhi Hai Anjam Hona Hai !

december thehar jaa zara!!

 

Love will never die…

She was lying lazily in her comfy bed,closing her eyes,trying to fall asleep,but her mind was wandering and she was unable to put herself to sleep…
she thought of writing something, so she got up, switched on the night lamp and took out her diary from the side drawer,
by the pale night light she started skimming through the diary , when she felt something fall from the diary…
Red rose petals, they were dried rose petals…

Her memory flashed back to the last spring ,
when she bought two rose plants…
planted them in separate pots, painted those pots & named each plant, one was Aliya (herself) and the other was Ahmad (her love)…
she watered them daily, cleaned them, sat by them for hours, whispering her secrets, treating them as  humans…
she told Ahmad about the plants too…

she was waiting for the plants to bear flowers,she prayed daily for the plants, spent day and night caring for them…
after 2 weeks there appears a bud in Ahmad’s plant …
she was so happy and excited, she told Ahmad about it,  he was surprised to see her happiness..
Ahmad’s plant bear two roses…. bright red fragrant roses…

Aliya was overjoyed but bit sad because no bud appears in her plant,
Finally there came a day, when one morning she went to water the plants , and saw a little red rose in her plant, Her happiness knew no bounds… She called Ahmad to tell him, She told him how she cared for them, and protected them. Ahmad appreciated her efforts but told her to take care of herself ,spend time on grooming herself rather than on plants. He knew Aliya is always so caring for everyone but not for herself…

Days passed by and the plants started withering ,Aliya felt so sad,
She tried her best to keep them alive but all in vain, The plants died …. !
Aliya cried rivers….
She was broken and felt so sad and low…
Ahmad tried to calm her:
“Aliya they were just plants…dont worry… Buy new ones… You are brave Aliya… Dont you know you are strong and now you are acting so weak… Come on good girl wipe away your tears, I can’t see your tears”

but Aliya started crying more bitterly..

 “Ahmad you don’t know how much I loved them…  Red roses are the symbol of love, they withered away… They didn’t care for my love… Ahmad it means our love will also die one day, Ahmad we are not destined to meet, do we? love will simply vanish from our lives….”

Ahmad startled by her questions came to knew her fears… She was right , they were not destined to be together forever..

“oh silly girl.. Love never dies… It only get stronger day by day… Even if we don’t meet , love will never die… Love is always around you… You just need to clear your eyes from the dust of mistrust and the tears of despair… Then you will be able to see True Love clearly…”

Aliya came back to reality when she felt her tears rolling down her cheeks…She wiped away the tears… Closed her diary with writing just one line:

“Love is all around me, Love will never die”

The red rose whispers of passion….